Rejection and self-pity.

Rejection and self-pity. http://ariellelin.multiply.com/ Home is a place where i can feel acceptance and love,, I can't find my way home,, T.T Thu, 21 Aug 2008 05:01:01 -0000 Sat, 21 Jun 2008 01:24:26 -0000 Rejection and self-pity. http://images.ariellelin.multiply.com/logo http://ariellelin.multiply.com 100 100 Oh men! OMG,, Kahapon,, nag-sign up kami sa,, MSTC!!!!!!!!! Grabe! Talagang dati parang yuck ever ganun ganun.. Pero nagsign up nako! Grabe kinakabahan ako,, Pero usapan na,, No-Quitters!.. Haayy.. Nu kaya mangyari sa Monday? Kbado talaga aq,, http://ariellelin.multiply.com/journal/item/37/Oh_men Sat, 21 Jun 2008 01:24:26 -0000 After a long time,,      Haiizz,, It's been a long time since my last post.. I'm sure my blog is filling up with cobwebs and dust and stuff..,, Well anyways,, it was about something that happened a day ago,, (if you are reading this on June 19)..      Well here it goes,, (I didn't tell this to anyone so blog, you're the first one,,) So he was reading the book and I was looking at something,, Nixon was talking with Edgardo but that doesn't really matter. When we were getting close to our destination,, when he said, "Yel, ako na lang mag-uuwi nito." "Yoko nga. G*go k b? Kaya ko nga hiniram ee,," (this is where the sh** happens) After what I said,, he started looking at me with puppy dog eyes... "Please,,,..." I looked at something else and said, "Sabi sayo hindi,," "Bilis na Arielle,, Pleeease?......" -more puppy dog eyes- "Nope,," That went on for like a minute,, I swear, when i had a chance to look him in the eyes,, i felt like i was being hypnotized or something.. WTF?... http://ariellelin.multiply.com/journal/item/36/After_a_long_time Thu, 19 Jun 2008 12:08:44 -0000 praktis.praktis.praktis. practice makes better works,, i think? well,, i still think it looks like http://ariellelin.multiply.com/photos/album/8/praktis.praktis.praktis. Mon, 16 Jun 2008 12:47:39 -0000 vector again salamat sa brush kaya mejo katanggap tanggap ung itsura http://ariellelin.multiply.com/photos/album/7/vector_again Wed, 28 May 2008 05:34:30 -0000 stay awake,, by MCR Stay Awake by http://ariellelin.multiply.com/music/item/7/stay_awake_by_MCR Tue, 20 May 2008 14:38:26 -0000 the world is ugly,, the world is ugly by http://ariellelin.multiply.com/music/item/5/the_world_is_ugly Fri, 16 May 2008 11:05:39 -0000 everybody please read! please! i beg you! please leave comments, too! thank you..,,      This is the worst day ever. I lost all the MCR songs in my iPod, and I mean everything. Not being a show of or anything but I have all of the MCR songs (except the Stay Awake, Song 2 and The world is ugly). And now, they are all gone. The only thing left is the songs from Immortality meant never dying! I searched everything! But, nothing! I spent days searching for those songs in LimeWire and then importing it to iTunes. I know, that's stealing. But it's the only way for me to listen to MCR every fucking day. I have no money to buy a single album, that's what pushed me to steal music. But this is my Karma, I caused all this. Still everything has a cause. I'm really not a budget saver type of girl. But know I need to, for me to buy all they're albums plus the DVD's. Anyone, please tell me where I can buy the albums (Bullets, Three Cheers, Black Parade and LOAMS) and when would they release the TBPID and where can I purchase it? Please help me,, I badly need your... http://ariellelin.multiply.com/journal/item/34/everybody_please_read_please_i_beg_you_please_leave_comments_too_thank_you.. Sun, 4 May 2008 14:50:33 -0000 MCRmy SEA online petition Just saw it in MCRmy SEA,, http://ariellelin.multiply.com/links/item/2/MCRmy_SEA_online_petition Sat, 26 Apr 2008 05:26:51 -0000 RuiNeD!!!    My hair is ruined because I have no control>_<,, The man who got my hair re-bonded reminded me that to swimming (because of chlorine) for one month,, no sun bathing, too. But me, being the "i-do-what-i-enjoy" type of person,, i put oil on my hair and jumped in the pool,, clever..NOT! This is so not good! My hair is so super dry today! Arghh! I'm gonna dump conditioner on it again so buh-bye! http://ariellelin.multiply.com/journal/item/33/RuiNeD Wed, 23 Apr 2008 23:50:24 -0000 vEcToRizEd!    Nainggit aq kay Belle,, nyahaha,, Kaya ginaya ko siya,, I tried doing vector art,, Nampucha! Ang hirap! Tpos ang jonget ng kinalabasan! (Check nio po sa mga photos sa edited chuvaness..) Pero at least nagawa q,, Kh8 mukhang cheneneng lang,, Nde ko ma-gets kpag gnamit ay lasso,, kaya ang ginamit ko pen tool,, Haiiiz,, Nde ko mahanap ung site ng gore editing,, nde q 2loi matapos ung isa ko,, Helping nmn pipz,, kung sino man ang nakakalam,, bigay nio po ung site! Tenchu po! http://ariellelin.multiply.com/journal/item/32/vEcToRizEd Tue, 22 Apr 2008 06:59:14 -0000 My cHeMiCaL dReAm,,    I dreamt about MCR,, Nag concert daw cla sa barangay namin (Wat d hell?) tpos nde dw alam,, paalis n dw cla,, Nsa lbas dw ako,, Dumaan c Mikey mlapit dun sa akin so I shouted "Mikey! Autograph!" So Mikey wrote "mikey".. Just then Gerard walked by and i'm like "Shit it's Gerard,, Gerard Way! I love You!" ang he looked at me and smiled sweetly,, And I leaned on someones car and said "OMFG! He's an angel!" I am feel like floating in mid-air in my dream like,, I'm as light as a feather,, And then the next scene is the Way brothers were in our terrace,, and I was talking to Mikey and then I said something and then Gerard said "Ano?" (in an american accent) and we were like laughing and eating doritos,, ^^ http://ariellelin.multiply.com/journal/item/31/My_cHeMiCaL_dReAm Mon, 21 Apr 2008 11:20:48 -0000 TruE MCR Fan Every word Gerard sings. Every beat Bob plays. Every solo Ray has put his heart into. Every note Mikey hit. Every rhythm that has ever come out of Frank's guitar. Saved the lives of thousands who didn't think they could make it. "92% of the teen population would be dead if Aberombie and Fitch decided that breathing wasn't cool! Repost this if you would be one of the 98% laughing hysterically in the background!! " Real MCR Fans 1)Real MCR fans know more songs than Welcome to the Black Parade. 2)Real MCR fans know Gerard Way's brother's name. 3)Real MCR fans shout "YES!" when one of their songs comes on. 4)Real MCR fans punch their cousins/brothers/parents/friends for dissing Gerard's hair. 5)Real MCR fans know the names of everyone in the band and what they do. 6)Real MCR fans shop for hours just to find a jacket like the band's have for a MCR concert. 7)Real MCR fans will repost this.. :) This is dedicated to, Everyone who was a demolition lover, Who was NEVER okay, Who was welcomed to the Black Parade. This is for, Ever... http://ariellelin.multiply.com/journal/item/30/TruE_MCR_Fan Sat, 19 Apr 2008 20:23:50 -0000 sA wKas,,    Pagkatapos ng 1 year and four months ay umuwi n ng 'pinas ang mami q,, Sinundo namin cia sa airport nung sunday,, Super pinigil ko ung iyak ko nun,, Success nde aq umiyak! Grabe nawala ung isang bagahe ni mami! Kainis,, kxe andun lhat ng chocl8s! Arghh! Fortunately, ipapadala un dito sa house ng NAIA within this week daw (Filipino time cguro?)  Anyways kahapon nag SM kme,, ang main task ay mag-grocery,, pumunta kami sa dept. store upang magpapalit ng kapepayan,, at sa kamalas malasan ng panahon,, wlang dirham sa SM! Ung debit card tuloy ni mami ung gnmit,, 6,000 lng laman nun,, sumobra ung grocery! Shit! Ibinalik tuloy ung Lay's >_<,, Pero at least lhat ng kelangan naisama,, Ngayong araw na to, aalis c mami kaya magpapadeliver n lng kme ng pizza,, 3 Weeks lng cia dito,, kelangan masulit nmn un,, Diz iz it!   http://ariellelin.multiply.com/journal/item/29/sA_wKas Tue, 15 Apr 2008 01:51:40 -0000 mY hUbbie's biRthDae! Gerard Arthur Lee Way's 31st birthday! http://ariellelin.multiply.com/calendar/item/10002/mY_hUbbies_biRthDae Tue, 8 Apr 2008 12:36:11 -0000 aWtiNg.. The best itong outing na ito..,, Grabe. Pro mas msaya sana kung ksama Lhat ng gus2 kong sumama..,, Pro grabe enjoii! Nagcng ako ng 5:30am..,, grabe sOper aga..,, ang usapan 7:00am kila Kleng..,, May service dun..,, naligo, nagbihis at nag-ayos pa ng gamit..,, Tumawag kila Janeng..,, TuLog pa si Ganda..,, Tsk. Nuod Tv..,, Tpos twag uLit..,, Tulog pa rin..,, Tawag kila Kleng..,, Andun na si Vecz at Ariz..,, Tawag kila Jez..,, paalis na..,, Tawag kila Janeng..,, tulog pa rin..,, Tawag kila Kleng..,, Nakaalis na ang service..,, mamamasahe na lang kami! Sunduin na nLa c Janeng..,, Derecho n cLa s kanto ng burol..,, Derecho n rin dw ako..,, Hinintay namin dun c Jez. Naglakad kami patungo sa Double V..,, Ang layo! Lakad.Usap.Lakad.Lakad.Tawa.Lakad.Tawa.Lakad.Usap.Usap.Tigil.Tawa.Kwento.Lakad.Lakad.Lakad. Nakalahati na namin. Nadaanan ang Burol Elementary School. Nakita c Blessed "Blessed sama ka!!!" "Nde puede..,, Graduation ng kapatid" "aayy.. sama ka na!" "samahan ko n lng kau hanggang... http://ariellelin.multiply.com/journal/item/28/aWtiNg.. Tue, 1 Apr 2008 03:43:00 -0000 for SSC II-aris2tlez... ibulletin q rn 2 s fster uHmmm.. gUsTo kO saNa mG pSaLaMat.. ^_^ MaMiMizz q KaU s bKaXoN! LoVe kO hALos LhAt! Ung mGa nDe nKaSama wLa Lng.. cGurO Di tAu MaXaDo cLoSe fOr sOme aT dUn sA iBa bAd TriP aQ s UgALi niO! LaLo kA nA _________! FeeLiNg KaH! EcHozErA! I hAte yOu! SabuNuTan kiTa! Ang bAbA ng TiNgiN mO sAmEn pUrKiT maTaLiNo Ka? And yOu tHinK eVeRyBody Loves You? wAkE uP aNd sMeLL tHe cOFfEe! pLaStiC kAmE dHiL piNapLasTiC mO kAmE! mGa kApiPz na sPeciAL pRa saKen.. eWaN  kO sA iNyO kUng sPeciAL aQ pRa sA iNyO bZtaH e2ng MgA i2 sPeciAL pRa sAkeN ---aLpHaBetiCaL oRdEr--- bOyS: ALSOLA, Nixon --ciempre GM Lan yan n0uh tsaka sa tgal ba naman naming magkaklase..,, magkasabay pa sa Jeep! ♫Ka-6oclockers♫ G-spotters BERNIL, John Joel --kxe BordZz and ciempre kxe special ka pra sa anak ko (jowk lang! ahehehehe) ♫Ka-6oclockers♫ GUEVARRA, Mark Angelo --kxe BordZz at mbait yan! Ka-sims pa! ♫Ka-6oclockers♫ MONTAÑEZ, Glenn --kxe BordZz tpoS rubik's whiz! MOPON, Marlon --ciempre mgaling sa Math at Science!(jowk) Mabait at Giving..,,... http://ariellelin.multiply.com/journal/item/26/for_SSC_II-aris2tlez..._ibulletin_q_rn_2_s_fster Sat, 22 Mar 2008 14:29:15 -0000 Overnight kila ate jHeyn Maraming salamat sa pinakamasipag (tlaga lng huh!) na teacher sa Technical Writing ng 2nd Year Dasma High na si Sir Ellison! For the first time may nagawa siyang matiwasay (well except sa 60% ng school days ay absent cia sa amin)! Nagpagawa cia ng proposal ng walang kakwenta kwenta naming Research. Nag-overnight kami sa bahay nila ate jHeyn! Buti pinayagan aq..,, Importante naman un eh. Birthday ni Bon nung araw na iyon. Happy birthday nga pala Bon. Pagkatapos kumain kila Bon ay umuwi ako upang kumuha ng damit. Tapos lumarga na..,, papunta kila ate jHeyn. Matapos ang ilang sandaling makarating aq kila ate jHeyn cguro mga almost 7:00pm ay nagsimula na kaming gawin ang proposal. Kasama namin si Janeng na hindi naman namin  kagrupo ngunit sumama (pero nde overnight) upang masilayan ang mukha ng kanyang minamahal na si *toot-toot*!! Nung mga past 7 nagpunta kami sa kabilang barangay upang sunduin si Lora. Inabot na kami ng almost 8 dun at problemada na si Janeng dahil 9:00 ata ang cur... http://ariellelin.multiply.com/journal/item/25/Overnight_kila_ate_jHeyn Mon, 17 Mar 2008 13:01:26 -0000 National Achievement Test Haiiiizzz... National Achievement Test Ang sarap..,, Dinugo ako. Ganito na ba kasama ang DepEd? Ang tibay! Pero at least half day lang ung klase..,, Ahehehe! Ang una kong tinake na test: Filipino. Ang haba. Amboring Bad Trip. English. Mas boring. Lampas Lampas na yung shade ko sa bilog sa sobrang antok. Amp I hate Math. Pinahirapan akong manghula. Science. Na~excite ako kaya nagising ang diwa ko. Pero mahirap. Araling Panlipunan. Wala lang. Mahirap siya medyo.   Well as for my lovelife..,, Uhmm gnun pa rin..,, Exhale ng exhale dahil walang ma~inhale..,, Gets nio? Ahehehe! http://ariellelin.multiply.com/journal/item/24/National_Achievement_Test Tue, 11 Mar 2008 06:55:51 -0000 Ive done 73 out of 144 stupid things Level 1 () smoked a cigarette () smoked a cigar () done weed () drank alcohol SO FAR: 0 Level 2 (X) been in love ( ) been dumped ( ) shoplifted ( ) been fired () been in a fist fight SO FAR: 1 Level 3 (x) sneak out of the house (x) had feelings for someone who didn't have them back ( ) been arrested ( ) made out with a stranger ( ) gone out on a blind date SO FAR: 3 Level 4 (x) had a crush on an older person (x) skipped school ( ) slept (not sex) with a co-worker (x) seen someone/something die SO FAR: 6 Level 5 (x) had/have a crush or liked on one of your friends. ( ) been to Paris ( ) been to Spain (x) been on a plane () thrown up from drinking SO FAR: 8 Level 6 (x) eaten Sushi ( ) been snowboarding ( ) met someone BECAUSE of myspace ( ) been mosh pitting SO FAR: 9 Level 7 ( ) been in an abusive relationship ( ) taken pain killers (x) love/loved someone who you cant have (x) laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by ( ) made a snow angel SO FAR: 11 Level 8 (x) had a tea party (x) flown a kite (x) built a sand castle (x) gone ... http://ariellelin.multiply.com/journal/item/23/Ive_done_73_out_of_144_stupid_things Thu, 6 Mar 2008 14:12:14 -0000 bOrdZz!!! BLACKBORDZ!! Ang Tropa namin..,, Pinakaastig sa lahat ng astig! Sabihin man nila na ang tamad namin kapag pinaglilinis ni Ma'am..,, Kapag hindi pinaglilinis nagkukusa kami! Kasama kasi un sa sinumpaan nang aming grupo..,, Ang aming apat na layunin na kelangang i~accomplish bawat araw na ginawa ni YahWeh 1. Maglinis ng room =Kusa nming ginagawa yan..,, Trip namin kxe ang lging paglinis ng room..,, Kh8 wlang cnsv c ma'am..,, Kpag cnv ni Ma'am Silvio at may plus o my minus ang nde maglinis ay saka sila maglilinis..,, at kami tatambay lamang at ssvhin nila ay napakatamad namin..,, Kpag sumakay cla s jeep ay pag~uusapan ang aming likas na katamaran..,, Cno b tlaga s atin ang tmad at wlang kwenta sa rum huh?!!?! 2. Mag~chismosan =Natural na iyan..,, kh8 n svhin na may mga lalake ay nakikisali rin sila..,, May mga hinanakit rin naman cla sa mga klasm8s natin d b? Ahehehehe 3. Makipaglaro ng Frisbee kay Sir Ben Miller tuwing Thursay at Friday =Siyempre! FrisBordZz! Ang exercise ng mga BlackBorDzz..,, FRI... http://ariellelin.multiply.com/journal/item/22/bOrdZz Mon, 3 Mar 2008 14:35:24 -0000 Gerard Way! Gerard Way picz..,, from My Chem Group here ion Multiply and from other sources http://ariellelin.multiply.com/photos/album/5/Gerard_Way Tue, 26 Feb 2008 11:40:18 -0000 MonDaY      Na~invite aq na pumunta kila Alyssa nung saturday..,, Nag punta si Izza sa House..,, Kung hindi niyo man alam..,, Sila ay mga classmate ko dati nung Elementary..,, So 10 am sa house nila Alyssa sa Cardinal..,, Nuod DVD, Kain, Trip..,, Sumama ako dahil miss ko na rin yung mga yun.      Pumunta aq ng 10 am..,, Nagpasundo ako kay Joyce sa waiting Shed..,, Dumating kami dun..,, Wla pa cla..,, Sumunod na dumating si Karen..,, Classmate nila na naging friend ko rin..,, Then dumating c Izza at ung classmate nila na taga sa amin..,, I forgot the name pero they call her kus~kso or something..,, she became my friend na rin..,, Nanood na kame ng Just my Luck tpos kumain ng lunch..,, Dumating na si Jennica..,, Pagkatapos nun nag ambagan cla..,,(wla aqng pepays eh!) Bili daw kme ng Ice cream..,, Pumunta kaming People's Point..,, SARADO!! Umikot pa tuloy kame pabalik tpos lakad ulit para pumuntang Foremost..,, Buti meron..,, Bumili kame ng Moo Ice cream Kumain ... http://ariellelin.multiply.com/journal/item/21/MonDaY Tue, 26 Feb 2008 04:55:16 -0000 .Live.and.breathe.and.die.alone. "Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you It's inevitable, it's a fact that we're gonna get down to it So tell me Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you" ~Why Can't I by Liz Phair Malaking tanong ko sa sarili ko..,, WHY? Bakit nga ba? Bakit umaagos ang tubig? Bakit mainit ang apoy? Bakit kapag nagugutom ka nalalaman mong nagugutom ka? ^serious na tau^ Bakit hindi nadidiktahan ang puso? Bakit kahit anong ayaw ko, ikaw parin yung naiisip ko? Bakit ganun? Bakit kaya kapag iniisip kita parang gumagaan ung loob ko pero ung nararamdaman ng puso ko pabigat ng pabigat?? Minsan kahit ayaw ko..,, There is something inside me na nagsasabing gusto ko ung mga nangyayari..,, Sabi ko..,, Tama na! Tama na! Ayoko na! Sabi nung maliit na tinig..,, Tumigil ka nga jan! Haaaaay..,, Bakit nga ba ang buhay masyadong kumplikado..,, Kung sana tubig na lang aq e di nde na ako nakakaramdam ng ganito..,, http://ariellelin.multiply.com/journal/item/20/.Live.and.breathe.and.die.alone. Fri, 22 Feb 2008 14:46:20 -0000 Ang buong daantaon..,, Ikalawang bahagi..,, February 14, 2008      Valentine's Day..,, Pakealam ko? Wala namang magbibigay ng bulaklak, chocolate, libreng pagkain o kahit ano pang may kaugnayan sa love and relationship..,, Well anyways first day ng aming exhibit..,, Walang kwenta talagang araw 'to..,, Putek! Merong nangyari nga lang na ikinatuwa ko..,, Cguro kapag kinwento ko yung nangyari sabihin nyo ang babaw ko naman or ang dali kong kiligin or bka na misinterpret ko lang ung gesture nya..,, Pero para sa mga katulad kong mejo "Live, Breathe and Die Alone" ang sarap marinig nung mga ganun..,, Kung gusto niyong malaman itanong niyo na lang saken..,, I private Message ko na lang or svhin q s inyo sa room..,, Bale ang pinagsvhan q p lng ay c Jezreel..,, Tingin q kxe mababaw ung dahilan para kiligin aq deep inside..,, I'm not that kind of girl na nginitian lng nangangatog na yung tuhod..,, Pero ewan ko ba..,, Cguro dahil Valentine's Day kaya ang lakas ng epek..,,      May mass wedding sa oval... http://ariellelin.multiply.com/journal/item/19/Ang_buong_daantaon.._Ikalawang_bahagi.. Thu, 21 Feb 2008 14:16:22 -0000 Ang buong daantaon..,, Unang Kabanata! Napakaraming nangyari nung nakaraang daantaon (read: linggo) February 11, 2008      Wala akong importanteng maikekwento tungkol sa araw na ito..,, Huwag nyo nang alamin..,, Nakalimutan ko na rin..,, BWAHAHAHA! February 12, 2008      Na~excuse kami sa Afternoon subjects namin sa kadahilanang kailangan namin mag~ayos para sa Valentine's Exhibit..,, Pero malas namin dahil sa Gym ito gaganapin imbes na sa classroom ng mga exhibiteers at sa malapit naman sa English Faculty ang mga kung anu~anong booth (eg. wedding booth, donut booth, kissmark booth, etc.). So bale halo~halong sardinas kami sa maliit na Gymnasium ng DNHS~Main. Nung lunch pumunta kami kila Lora para manood ng Sweeney todd..,, Kxe nga excused kaya okay gumala..,, Gagawa rin kxe kme ng script ng musical play na kasama ng walang kwentang exhibit. So nanood kami ng Sweeney Todd..,, Na~shock ako kxe nde q akalaing ganun pala ung mga pangyayari dun sa movie na un..,, I didn't expect hardcore bl... http://ariellelin.multiply.com/journal/item/18/Ang_buong_daantaon.._Unang_Kabanata Tue, 19 Feb 2008 13:18:59 -0000 Sa lhat ng MCR fans Uhmm..,, kung meron po kayong kelangan na kanta ng My Chem..,, Svhin nyo po saken..,, Mp3 format po ung isend q sa inyo..,, ang hirap po kxe i-upload d2 sa multiply kpag maxado pong marami..,, Except lng po sa kakarecord pa lang huh..,, bale ung sa Bullets, 3 cheers at black Parade album po..,, tpos ung iba pong bonus songs..,,  http://ariellelin.multiply.com/journal/item/17/Sa_lhat_ng_MCR_fans Tue, 19 Feb 2008 12:26:30 -0000